Tuesday, May 28, 2013

Mom Talk: Meh

My blog handle has had a run for it's money over the last few weeks.  I may come off a little melodramatic in some sense over another - no one is sick, we still have a roof over our head, and food is still brought to the table ( a knock on wood for all of the above).  But needless to say, there's been lots of chaos, and sometimes it hasn't been all too pretty.  

The Hubs has been crazy, super, busy with work.  Between late night calls, last minute business trips, and over the weekend projects, his time has been strapped to this video game launch.  And I try to keep positive, as he co-parents when he can. But as the trite British, phrase goes, I must "Keep Calm, and Carry On" until next November, when the game launches in stores, and work-life returns to steady balance.   

The boys.  I love them to bits and pieces.  And as they grow older, the house gets even louder and rowdier. Between mitigating over toys not shared, pulling a climber off a falling bar stool, and appeasing every whine and cry, I find that I am more a referee instead of mom.  On top of it all, I have a 3 1/2 year old going on 13, who expresses these hyper-sensitive emotions that I have to respond with the utmost care.  

And then there's me.  Once you peel away the thick layers of pent up mother's guilt, you'll find a slew of a mess.  My stress levels have reached an all time high, and I feel pressure coming from every direction. And I get snappier as the pressure progresses. Between clocking hours at my day job, fostering the growth of this bloggity blog (trying), and balancing my role as a loving mom (striving) and devoted wife (attempting), I have been worn down to the bit.   And drowning with unkept deadlines. 

Beyond all this, I have been craaaaaaaaving for change.  A transformation.  Whether it be moving to a new city, taking on a new job, redecorating my house.... something. Do you ever feel as if you are running on a hamster wheel and you just want to jump out of your sordid routine? Yep, party of one standing right here.  

Like I said, I have struggled with this balancing act time and time again.  And I realize that I am not dealing with world class issues here. I'm just going through one of those weeks months where I am 'meh' about everything.  Got any positive words of inspo? I have to say, this one carried me through the weekend :)

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